The Naked And Famous - Spank

 

I don?t remember the first time
But I think I survived
Probably better not to try to recall cause it feeds it, yea it keeps it alive
There are specific things
That I have to do
Day to day just to keep it at bay
You wouldn?t believe if you knew

Oh no, this isn?t real

Here?s a little secret
Here?s the best part
This is gonna take me right back to the start
If I can?t hear it
If it?s out of mind
Wait until it settles
Comes round a second time

I don?t remember the first time
But I think I survived
Probably better not to try to recall cause it feeds it, yea it keeps it alive

Oh no, this isn?t real

Here?s a little secret
Here?s the best part
This is gonna take me right back to the start
If I can?t hear it
If it?s out of mind
Wait until it settles
Comes round a second time

I can feel it loom up into my head
It is in the room
Panicking in bed
I feel it coming on
Taking over view
Oh please not tonight
There?s nothing I can do
This is bigger than me
This is in my fear

This is pitiful
I just disappear
Swells up all around me
Swallowed up inside
Sell my senses if it would make this subside
I can barely handle
I can pass the time
Staring through the curtains up into the sky
Where there is no depth perception
Keep preoccupied: self deception

Nobody recognises
It doesn?t have a name
My brother is infected; he?s acting just the same
Screaming like a siren, up and down the hall
He just wants to stop it
He wants to end it all
I am just a child
I have nothing more than the basic function I am running from
I curl up and wallow
My distortion
Everything is disproportion

Suddenly I wake
All is back again
Everything is closer
Morning is the same
And I can?t hear it; it?s way out of mind
I will just forget this till the next time